Building a Tower.

I would love to own a castle one day.
Part of that is my history nerd inside me but I believe a part of that is a masculine "I am a King and warrior" thing inside me that I believe God puts inside all men. Even to an extent women too. Women want a safe place, security, whereas men want to conquer and take lands. (I'm oversimplifying, but feel free to disagree)

I want a place where I am at home, a place I can go where I am in charge and when enemies and conflict are all about I can take refuge in. I can look out on all the places I have been and come through, and sit safely while I plan my next steps. It has strong walls that cannot be brought down, it is so tall that it inspires awe.


How sad when I try to build that tower myself.



I've tried to build a tower from a lot of different materials. I've used a lot of different techniques. But ultimately these towers I've built come crumbling down, or they turn out to be dirtier on the inside and all the doors fall down until I'm trapped in my own stronghold. Being trapped in the thing you thought would keep you safe is the worst. Especially when you keep doing building new ones and thinking it will work this time.

But I have learned, am still learning and I'm sure will be learning until the end of my days that the only one who can build, maintain and BE a tower is the Lord God Almighty.

The psalms are full of imagery of God as a strong tower. The whole bible itself is full of instances where God IS a strong tower for those who call on His name. The bible is a tale of God wanting to be a father who has his children run into his arms and call him Dad. But we try and construct other dads and find our own way to get fed, when all along we were meant to just sit and suckle at the teat of God. (sorry for the strange imagery??)

I have been challenged where my priorities lie. Even to the point of why I want a tower. Do I want to build this tower to create better ministry or launch great evangelistic conquests. Or is it simply a place to hide and be safe and intimate with My God??

So now I am in the process of building a new tower. One that cannot be shaken. It might take a while, it will take effort, but really, if it's all I really want its worth it right??

So I'm gonna start laying the bricks. What about you?